Youve got to spend some time with me love, i will possess your heart <3

im sitting in the cafiteria for the first timethis year trying to consume this horrible soup i purcahsed for lunch. at work today me ane eric were in the studio and he put on i will posess your heart, and it made me think, those lyrics. and when you sang them in the car, did it mean something. yes now i do know. weezer in a week and a half, haa you say some super cute things. i like getting comfertable just talking. the class countdown has begun. 20 minutes and i just saw corey. i wish somehow we havet lost our friendship living toether is great i just dont have any time. anf its hard to try to juggle everything and keep people happy. i dont think its all possible.

im going to be peter pan for halloween and i think its going to be great.

that soup made me feel really sick.
i really should study more
or sleep

one or the other would be fantastic

<3

it wont go the way it should but i know the heart of life is good

ive been listing too too much john mayer. life seems to slowly be falling appart and holding its self together all at once. how did i ever get here. im so afraid, where are my problems. do i deserve to be this happy?

forever ago this blog was about hate and how i wanted people i could never have, like the best part of a depressing movie. but now im at the end of my happy movie. since when do i get happy endings. i just cant help but think that things could go terribly wrong.

i have to pretend certian eyes dont see this to even write it

but me and stuart had sex and well yes. it wasent planned really but on an afternoon while family guy played in the background we had sex for the first time.
which is very cute becuase you watch girly movies in the morning time when i cant sleep, and we go for coffee and talk.

how can i be this happy? idk but i shouldnt deny myself of it becuase im enjoying every bit of it

last night i turned 19

ok once again i woke up in a mess. my underwear is indise out and i had 9 empty cooler bottels in my trunk. im really enjoying what i have. its really great. i was a mess last night and im sorry you drove me home, you really didnt have to. i dont want you to get sick of me, like you said. that scares me, but this whole thing did. i feel elctric when we kiss. and im proud to hold you in public. i have this feeling im going to be consuming alot of water, and wanting to be going back to sleep very soon. haha yes starbucks card! and sex and the city! and tea light things and just a fun time singing. i was just so sleepy. i have no idea why i thought we were at your house.

i was just really drunk. lol.


HAHA YES I CAN BUY MY OWN EVERYTHING

look in my mouth

some people need a big kick in the ass, and they diserve it. if only steve t was around becuase i know hed scare the bloddy shit out of sandy. so now im in u house working on my print media work and talking online, i wish life could go back to being simple. you still make me smile hen i think about things and ive got a lot of work to do tonight since i let my homework at home which sucks, ihave to do alot of stuff tonight, allong with tomorow. hey its not easy being a person that does these things. things will be ok i promise even if its not for right now.