i cant sleep. ive been reading secrets. its 2 am and i cant sleep. it is eating me up inside, i just cant fix it. their arent rooms enough for maybes any more and i had thought i had eleminated those a year ago, i guess for everyone but me. these things arent letting me sleep and i feel ill from it. i cant eat at work latley its been too much stress to try and eat meals. i just do want my old body back. probably the worst part is that i cant figure it out and maybe strangers are right i just cant see it or let it. i feel like this blog isnt what it was intended for since here i hide all the things i hide from myslef.