here we are, back at square one. i think I'm at square one in alot of ways. right now I'm feeling the lighter side. my rooms light and the things in it are, I'm going to try not to look too far ahead or anything. the things we come across in life are not permanent. i kind of wish i didn't know. too much going on. it was nice not to have a huge plan for today. back to work on thursday. i cant read anyones mind and it seems the closer i get to things the farther they seem to drift away. normaly soon i hope. or at least summer. i have the what if'ing im not going to do it anymore. i cant deal.