i should have given you a reason to stay

I'm not stoaked on classes tomorrow, why didn't i write my papers? why? fuck I'm fucked. i have all of tomorrow night to do it i guess after art class. and in between during my break i guess ill come home and cook and read my text book. life's depressing it seems. with all the good times it seems like i fall into a pit of wonders when I'm down. i saw telekinesis at Richards on Richards on Friday night and it was really good along with cut off your hands and Ra ra riot. it was amazing and i liked it a lot. their seems i get no middle ground this week, and this whole ticket ordeal has brought back all my old bad habits about locking doors and thinking. the anxiety is really getting to me. things that don't matter matter, things that you don't notice i now do and think every ones judging me for it. i want to go home so badly and pretend this life isnt mine and sleep in my bed and pretend its not like this. i wish i could be a child again. i am guilted around every corner and i don't want my life to be like this anymore. i just ant normal and i had it for so long. i dont want this right now