Vaka

terrible person or evaluative thinker? i really am stuck in this werid vibe place. i need a few things. i think for the next few weeks i need to go back and do what i love. eventhough you mean alot to me i feel like ive lost something by doing this. ive found im less fun less adventurus, and is it just that im stressed and gorwing up and tired? or is it the fact that its you. no offenxe but i need stuff too and i cant keep doing everything you need, or want. its like if im going to shave my legs your going to shave your face. where is the effort? i need some. i need you to pull a big one out of the bag becuase its true i dont want to be anywhere but in your arms. but the other night you couldnt hear it in my voice or see it in my face. its almost like im searching for hurt. did you change me or did i change myself, becuase i dont want this to be over but i need something new. maybe its just the time or the weather but i want to go to the beach on friday and you can come if you want. ill be on the sand. some times i do just go to the beach. i know if i needd you and i was crying youd come but where were you.


i need you to want me love me and need me, and i think its time to become more separate
of people for now. no more schedule.


and if your juding me by reading this stop reading my blogs.