Love is the brand we all wear and its the one thst matters

im awake. i just saw the best movie so far of the year. im very confused right now. like more than i have been in a long time. im not reading, or searching , or at least im trying my hardest not to. i dont know what to think or what i want. i do know what i want, but im still afraid. i think im at the point again where i just know. here we go again, im going to try to turn my brain off this beaten path. im tired of trying to figure out everything, and it dosent matter really. it dosent matter at all. i love admitting that, It dosent matter at all. im getting to the point of resting, work again.... lol as my life.

Pulling Back

Ive found myself looking too far into things. somehow i get to wraped up in the small stuff and forget what really matters to me and in my life. i have these stores but thye are all about the same people, what can that tell me? i actually cant wait for school to start again!! my school is small but i know it and really love it, no matter what people want to say. best album of today is the photo album, so good. things are so intense and i have no idea how im going to get everything done this week. i dont think they are going to sell single day pass's. i need a vehicular, one that dosent eat my money like fire and paper. pulling back did what it was suposed to, it came back and was fine.

Reality check

i think you find all the things tha are wrong when you tell them to someone else, and wow. its been a few crazy months and as much as i think they were good alot of bad things have happened and ive been hurt. all those hurt things are alot, just tell me you care.


"Snails"

Nico Take it slow
Show me that you care
And love's not just a flare on my sleeve
Sleep well, I pray that cardboard boxes,
Set the perfect stage.
'Cause wood grain makes all man made things seem so out of date
Life is not a play, it's what we
Make of the people we love.

Snails see the benefits
The beauty in every inch
So why, why, why, why, oh, why
Are you quick to kiss?
She bites at blades and leaves
God damn you shrubbery
Well I’m sick of vanity plays
Should we move to the UK?
'Cause life here in the states has escaped
All the people above us.
What we make of those people we love

Snails see the benefits
The beauty in every inch
So why, why, why, why, why
Are you quick to kiss?
Baby, maybe I spoke too soon
I’ll touch you once you make the first move
Snails see the benefits
The beauty in every inch

I watch her as she runs
My mother jumps the gun
She puts her in her arms
That is just like my mom
Never lets go, never lets me grow old
I wanna pay her back
But love is nothing you can tax
My family’s not rich by any means
But I feel we won the lottery, that day
The rock swallowed the girl
And I cried as cameras caught my eyes
My tears turned into butterflies
They fly away as caskets close
A new day comes you’ll wake unfold
Smile when you feel the sunlight
You feel the sunlight
You feel the sunlight


Snails see the benefits
The beauty in every inch
So why, why, why, why, why
Are you quick to kiss?
Baby, maybe I spoke too soon
I’ll touch you once you make the first move
Snails see the benefits
The beauty in every inch, oh
Snails see the benefits
The beauty in every inch

i just see all the bad things and it dosent make me want it, i see whats going on and its easy to let lost in the sea of fun. you just want what you cant have, and i just lyed but its true, i cant come. ive spoken too soon, becuase i already did make the first move. im stuck on you when their are so many others. and in other ways in dissaponted in others, what i would do for you isnt something you'd do for me.

feel the flow

review and now i forgot what it was like to get pumped up for a show. unrealistic things have been drifting, and whoa more insane dreams. ive got to get my news, and write it out on the pad, ive got to charge this laptop, ive also got to stop thinking. i went out today with Rebbecca and it just dort of reinforced how different we are now compared to the past. the only way i can make sure a playlist fits is if its too loud. ive got to listen to the whole thing arranged a few times. its devine how things have changed. i dont know what to do in this whirl wind of situations. im afraid again. really afraid. and so what i guess i didnt know what i was saying but still. and ive got the van all day tomorow and ive got to get up at 6 am, leave at 6:55 get gass, fun times, pick up missy, get food, go to the studio, get pumped< yes that is in their> finish show 20, then go record show 21 while i write up our preposal becuase missy does the music for the second one, then after that hour go and do our demo. yar then drive back to aldy or langley. eventually langley .eat lunch and call maggie, were suposed to be doing soething if her job dosent call her in, i bet it will be sushi and oh man i hate the van but whatever its independince for now. the thing only eats gas like a kid could eat candy if it had unlimited supply. i really need to take my mind off this. my rooms almost clean and idk. i think alot of things arent going so well. i wish i had all the answers or you would talk. and then i also wish other things could get better. im on my wn for dinner too i guess, its monday ugh i dont get paid for another 2 days. and i have to go find a new dress and shoes for sex in the city. the finance office said another few days before they get our things in the mail, then maybe once it comes i can get my tattoo.