im really tired. im trying to suppress somevsort of emotion and i cant difrentuate things from day to day or when they happened anymore. another day another time. im not going to make a big deal about anniversarys anymore. or talk about those things in which you dont want to. sometimes i really wonder what were doing. our lives don't mesh, somehow we just make then blend together for a certain amount of time. on gosh maybe im just in a slump god i feel like throwing up.