i think im comming to this point where things are slowly making sense. for me at least. i know what i want. i dont want to just be another face to add. im wondering if that one day i can be happy ether way. im loosing in one way but i thihk im more than gaining with others. but i do miss my older self, even though im happier than before. i burned my finger on the egg in toast hole thing. i dont know who much longer i can be confused for, this has to end somewhere.