i wish everything wasent happeneing. i hate being the crying person you dont know what to say anything to, becuase that in its self just makes me feel more alone, id rather just have people sit with me. its hard. i cant do it on my own. i dont want to cry. i dont want to make things akward. i dont want to party tomorow night. its more than one thing thats stressfull. i woke up at 6 am, from a nihtmare.im tired, but im awake. i cant explain whats going on inside here, but its way to deep. never ever could i forget any of this.