im actually

more upset than anything.

just the idea that you wouldn't drive on Christmas to be together. i cant help but think if something changed the other night. some deep seeded idea from a tragically altered brain, transplanted and watered within your head. that's always going to be the problem. that and your communication skills. maybe I'm irrational and except everything but when you've trained me to be that way how can you expect anything different. right now i truly want away.

Christmas actually just seems ruined and I'm not going to hold back on this in the future.