tell me what you need, even if its alone

all throught the day i have so many things i want to put into this, but then i get home and rethink it all and im not sure if its all the same. my feelings and motivations and ideas are like day and night. forever changing. i hate how things imediatly change from me being something important to nothing . a something you could stand to loose. i dont know what to do with myself and i havent spent any time at home in days. oh how i wish things could be simpler. i hope we got that house. somehow i think michelle fucked it up. im afrid im too messed upinside. and i think other things are far to messed up to ever be fixed.

these last few days have had some picture erfect moments, its got to end soon