tell me that you'll open your eyes

today.. ive been up for 22 hours. ive got nothing, nothing to say and ive run out of people and time. i dont even know what to do. ive dryed the well so many times i cant even cry. im not sure if going to tims tonight was very smart. but i had to get away and try to not just think about it. i never thought this would happen tonight. this morning started off good, except for work calling. i dont even know what to do. then i went on what was called a hangout but was more like a date. i dont know if i can. im so draned and tired, i just cant put on a happy face right now. i almost came to the point where i didnt know what was going on and i was going to loose you. some people just dont understand. my eyes hurt and i just drove an hour home. im beside myself and it dosent fell like anything right now other than a ball of worry. i wish. i hope. i dream. and i never wanted my last words to be those ones.

all of this feels strange and untrue

i want you to open your eyes